new phase. new life Juli 11, 2009

so, I know.. I know.. I get really busy in my frantic life so I abandoned my blog for a little while.. hoho…

but I’m back now, and with several new addictions to boot.. and exciting updates!

without further adue.. the addictions:

I am currently in lust with my 2-months-old blackberry (which i bought out of envy seeing as my boyfriend got it first! what can i say, I am a gadget freak!) but not to worry.. I’m still around an would install wordpress blogging client for my bb so i can blog anywhere anytime haha!

and am totally crazy for twitter… the microblogging sites that’s all the craze right now.. so you could also follow me on twitter.com/caecilia_dee for my hourly updates and bitching and hopes and stuff

summer dresses… I’m moving back to Jakarta and it’s hot hot hot! so am starting to look around for more pretty dresses to buy and cute sandals to set it off

And the updates!

I’m now officially Caecilia Dian Pratiwi, S.IP. yay! I have graduated from Unpar with summa cum laude grade!  and now am focusing on continuing my post graduate study in the University of Indonesia..

I’m taking a master in communication management.. but still torn between minoring in political communication or mass media.. any suggestion? and am proudly has been accepted at UI. i just found out this morning! so happy hahahaa

That is one of my greatest ambitions in life; apart from travelling around the word, inventing cancer cure, be very rich and very famous, having lotsa dogs, see penguins at least once, etc etc; to always study.. i have a very high curiosity level.. always have to know everything and anything..

After i graduate, i have a lot of time in my hand.. in my spare time between frantically studying for my UI test and applying for high-paying jobs (;p) i begin to see that i have changed a lot.. and hopefully for the better..

this year has been an amazing year for me.. I graduate from college, My Mom is cancer-free, I got steady in my new relationship and found my husband-to-be, my cousin get married, i got accepted in UI.. It’s amazing..

but i also found out that my dad, who i no longer respect or consider as my dad!, is cheating on my mom..

i have tried to forgive and forget.. but sometimes.. it’s very hard to do..

i can understand why my mom is very cool about this.. she has, like, the highest level of religiousity, but I haven’t reached that level yet.. so i feel entitled to hate my ex-dad as much as i could! for both my mom and myself..

moving along.. let the sad phase be buried deep down and never be seen again, hahaa..

tomorrow I’m going to Jakarta to “report for duty” to UI.. wish me luck on the second selection.. one more step toward becoming a master student…

last for now… I am thanking the Gracious Lord for all His Gifts to me.. and asks for guidance in the days to come, as I am still looking for the right job and the right residence.. and may all that I do be bless to run smoothly and easily.. and God.. I give all my burden to You.. I release them.. as You know what’s best…

Now, I’m gonna put on my make up and head out for the night! a crazy night out with my loved ones and friends! happy weekend everyone

In the mood for love.. Februari 14, 2009

I’m in the mood for love- Frank Sinatra

 

I’m in the mood for love

simply because you’re near me

Funny but when you’re near me,

I’m in the mood for love.

Heaven is in your eyes,

bright as the stars we’re under,

Oh, is it any wonder,

I’m in the mood for love.

Why stop to think of whether this little dream might fade,

We´ve put our hearts together -

now we are one, I’m not afraid.

If there’s a cloud above,

if it should rain, we’ll let it.

But for tonight forget it,

I’m in the mood for love.

I’m really in the mood for love right now =)

Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone..

Sistem Kebut Skripsi Februari 10, 2009

Hmm, gak kerasa sekarang udah jadi mahasiswa tingkat akhir.. dan semester ini dengan amat sukses hanya mengambil mata kuliah berjudul skripsi dan berbobot 6 sks saja (SAJA??)

Jadinya sekarang i have a lot of spare time..

but i like it this way.. hehehe, saya jadi punya banyak waktu untuk membaca, nerjemahin dan terutama MAIN sama teman-teman tersayaang… =) (nyengir lebar)

 

nah berhubung pengen nyenengin Mama, rencananya mau selesein skripsi bulan Februari/Maret ini… 

Bagaimana bisa mencapai target yang agak luar binasa ini??

 

Ternyata gak susah-susah amat kok, cuma memang harus mengumpulkan niat dulu yang kekeuh terus pantengin deh bahan” dan data di depan kompi atau si putih… hehehe… kemaren BAB 2 dengan sukses dikerjakan dalam waktu 2 minggu… 1 minggunya ngumpulin mood, 3 hari baca bahan sama milah-milah, ngetiknya 2 hari aja… hehehee

 

ternyata emang, dilemanya lebih pada mengumpulkan mood untuk ngetik skripsinya daripada yang lain… hehehe..

piss ah, ini juga selingan aja.. sekarang back to my thesis… BAB IV Mode ON!

The Butterflies are coming.. Februari 9, 2009

It’s been almost 5 years since i last dated
It’s been almost 5 years since i last have a first date with someone i really like..

the pitter-patter of my heart, and the queasy feeling in my stomach…

God, i can feel the butterflies are coming next!

and i will welcome them, with wide open arms.. =)

Turning over a new leaf.. Februari 9, 2009

It’s a brand new year, it’s a brand new day..
The past is dead, buried, forgiven and forgotten..

now, i’m embracing a new start.. a better me.. a better world on my views.. =)

i’m moving on..

dan lagu yang paling cocok bukan elo yang baru, atau apalah itu.. tapi lagi ini hahahhaa

Semenjak Ada Dirimu-Andity

Tak pernah kuduga
semuanya berubah
saat kau memandangku
bergetar hati ini
kau berikan harapan tentang
warna-warni hariku

semenjak ada dirimu
dunia terasa indahnya
semenjak kau ada di sini
kumampu melupakannya
kini aku tak sabar
kini hati kau untukku
nyatakanlah kepadaku
janji indah yg kutunggu
semua kini tlah bersinar lagi
takkan kuingat dia

semenjak ada dirimu
dunia terasa indahnya
semenjak kau ada di sini
tak ingin melepaskanmu
kau berikan harapan tentang
warna-warni hariku
warna-warni hariku

thanks for brightening up my days! =)

2009 Resolution/Wishes/Whatever Desember 31, 2008

so, lama banget sejak terakhir nulis di blog ini.. akhirnya baru sekarang dapaet waktu dan mood yang pas untuk posting lagi..

gak kerasa sekarang udah akhir taun lagi aja.. j minus sekian kita bakalan ngadepin a brand new year yang semoga saja akan membawa banyak perbaikan dan hal-hal baru yang menyenangkan dalam hidup kita..

so, taun baru identik dengan resolusi pula.. meski saya agak anti menyebutnya resolusi, karena jadi seeprti terpaku dengan tenggat waktu kayak dikejer setoran.. jadi mungkin baiknya disebut wish list aja kali ya.. 

this is mine for 2009:

1. Graduate with flying colours and get a good job I have passion for (and pays well too =))

2. Able to make my Mom happy

3. Apply more discipline in my life

3. Living modestly, gak sering-sering hedon lagi

4. Be a responsible person

5. Stop turning into a pathological liar

6. Have a better relation with my family

7. Eating healthy

8. Spent more time with besties and friends

9. Able to take a stand for myself in my relationship, and hopefully bisa menegaskan status gw yang gak jelas ini, soon! or dipertemukan dengan jodoh gw yang memang meant to be under grace in perfect ways.. =)

10. be good to myself =)

 

Amiinnn..

hmm torn dan yang ini berbeda Juli 20, 2008

kalau soal merasakan hati harus berbuat apa lagi pastinya tidak ada yang bisa mengatur atau mendikte seperti judul blog saya. kalau saja kita bisa mendikte hati ini, rasanya mungkin kehidupan ini akan jauh lebih mudah dijalani. karena jadinya mood dan perasaan kita bisa dinyala-matikan seperti lampu saja dengan sekali tekan tombol on/off. tapi sekali lagi, sayangnya. saat ini jelas bukan itu yang terjadi.. saat ini hati dan batin saya sedang beradu argumen, sudah hampir sebulanan ini lebih tepatnya… lebih berat kemana? keamanan kah? atau mengikuti idealisme saya bahwa perasaan itu harus lebih didahulukan daripada segalanya, meski harus mempertaruhkan resiko tidak mendapatkan apa-apa. tapi justru di situ letak nikmatnya?? Tuhan… andai bisa ada orang yang memilihkan, hahahah… saya yakin posisi yang sekarang saya lalui ini pasti pernah dilalui banyak orang dalam satu fase kehidupan mereka… kalau boleh tahu, langkah apa yang paling tepat untuk mengkondisikan pikiran dan hati saya supaya lebih bijak dalam mengambil keputusan? atau memang satu-satunya obat adalah waktu yang tak kenal lelah dan tak kenal subjektivitas itu? karena waktu, pada saatnya, toh akan membuktikan juga.. kebenaran semua kekhawatiran. ataupun terwujudnya harapan kita… untuk kamu, si belahan jiwa saya… apa benar, saya sekarang sudah sungguh tertinggal kereta?

in too deep Juli 11, 2008

i am in too deep

i’ve made my bed, now i have to sleep on it

God, what have i done, and what the heck am i supposed to do now??

ternyata… Juli 9, 2008

ternyata, sendirian tidak semenakutkan itu

ternyata, ketakutan tidak menyeramkan saat dihadapi

ternyata, kesanggupan bertahan jauh lebih menang

tenyata, kenyamanan semu itu tidak lama bertahan

dan ternyata, memang aku bukan jenis orang yang bertahan dalam kepura-puraan.

couldn’t have what i want Juli 6, 2008

as an only child i used to get everything that i wanted in life, money, toys. vacation, anything.. but right now i wanted something that i used to have.. and right now, i couldn’t have it no matter how much i want it or how hard i begged.. hmm… for you who make it impossible for me to get there… would you consider a rethink? just asking